The Creation process is like an ocean. Sometimes the waves are high and stormy, filled with passionate euphory. Sometimes the ocean is calm and deep and we can look all the way down to the ground. Sometimes there is tide and walking in the mud seems to be difficult and lame. Some days it’s sunny and the water is Deep Blue. Sometimes there are clouds and everything is grey….
Mothership Gaia is my Ocean of Creation. It is the highest call for my creative contribution in this very special time of herstory. Sometimes I call her a “project” but she is more than that. The laws of a project do not resonate with the quest of a blissness…..a deep life filling mythic call…not just a cool job…..
And still - sometimes I tend to judge my self as a Mothership Gaia workshipping artist in this traditional context of work. The difference between Having and Being.
How many results do I have by the end of this work week ? How many people have signed up, have written good feedback, have joined the team? How much fundings, contacts, interested folks have I gathered ? How much progress have I made this work week ? Have, have, have. The book keeping “balance sh(e)it” of a work week. If I haven’t have had anything this week, would I still be at peace and filled by the process ?
Yes! If I look at my creative process from the position of Being…..
“Let it be, let it be, oh let it be…..”
“Having” lives from the comparison of the mind between the programmed “should haves” and the “Is-state” (A projected piece of mindware: a project) The “should haves” are usually dictated by the outside voices of society norms that echoe from my inside. In this comparison I can judge my self along a rating system and feel either good or bad about my Self, work and process.
“Being” is living in the “IS-state” without the need of the “should have states”.
“Having” needs a book keeper. “Being” a meditative observer.
“Having” focuses on .(in)com via .(out)com through control
“Being” focuses on .organic growth through letting evolution be and dance with it in an intuitive way. It’s a spontaneous response not a programmed re-action.
If Mothership Gaia would be just a project I would believe in it and struggle in my believe if I haven’t achieved certain results. Then, of cause, I would believe I can do it “better”.
But because Mothership Gaia is a blissness, a deep life filling call and mythic quest - something that comes from a deeper source than my mind – because of this I rest peacefully in faith. Faith is a relationship with Truth. Truth is what sustains when we take everything away. Faith can still be there even if I do not believe at times. The observer of “Letting Be” simply “injoys” the .organic growth and Creation process, evolution, Genesys…….
The achiever in the pressure of “Having” lives in this funny human time that makes so much TamTam of a couple month and years…….
The observer in the dance with “Being” lives in relative cosmic time and therefore rests in infinite patience that does not judge the waves of the Ocean as good or bad, progress or regress (even if doing so)
The Ocean of Creation is what it Is, neti, neti….not this not that…..and so am I.
